I knew this had to stop, but I had been enjoying it too much.
One day it hit me: one of us will decide to leave anyway. It is just a matter of who and when. And I do not want to be left.
So I gathered my courage. The moment I said hello, I can tell that his assistant recognised me. There must have been an instruction to keep me away, because she said that he was not available.
I hesitated for a moment, but then I pulled myself together and said, “Please send him my goodbye.”